HOPE or PAIN

ENGLISH:HOPE or PAINWhat am I expecting?
Every time the phone receiver
I'm grasping trembles
My heart leaps
But soon I'm let down with a sigh
How many times will I continue to do this?How long am I going to believe the words, "some other day"
When it will never come?It's better to forget
Thinking that I just dreamed for a little while
Though I know very well
A miracle will never happen
Though I know very wellI'm sorry I told you abruptly that day
That everything became suddenly unclearThe last time that I saw your tears
Is still clinging to my memoryWhy couldn't I believe in you .
Right in front of me?
You see? It must have been good enough
Only to love what I was loving
Almost clumsilyI wonder if I could leave
Something for youWhen time passes by
What will be left for me?
My heart going on wishing for a miracle?
Or justA scar?
ROMAJI:HOPE or PAINittai nani wo kitai shiteru to iu no
nigirishimeteru denwa ga furueru tabi
ichiichi mune ga takanatte
demo sugu ni tameiki ni kaete
mou nando kurikaeshikuru wake nai itsuka nante kotoba
itsu made shinjiteru tsumorinee wasurete shimaeba ii
sukoshi yumemite ita dake datte
kiseki nante okoru wake mo
nai koto kurai wakatteru noni
wakatteru nonikyuu ni subete ga wakaranaku natta tte
ano hi totsuzen iidashite gomen nesaigo ni mita namida ga ima mo mada
atama kara hanarezu ni irunee doushite me no mae no kimi wo
shinjite agerarenakatta n' darou
suki na mono wo bukiyou na kurai
suki na dake de juubun datta
hazu na noni nenee watashi wa kimi ni nanika wo
nokoshite ageru koto ga dekita kananee kono mama toki ga sugitara
watashi ni wa nani ga nokoru n' darou
soredemo mada kiseki wo negai
tsudzukeru kokoro? soretomo tada nokizuato kana?