I Live With It Every Day

On August 1st, 1981
I cycled to Scott's house with a BB gun
We were almost 12 but we looked 13
He had baby blue eyes that I shot him betweenNature provides for us a safety net
Whatever we do, we can never forgetI live with it every day
Even though we moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking momentsThe day they found me asleep on the floor
Engine running, closed garage door
Was the day the 'For Sale' sign arrived on the lawn
2 weeks later and we were goneEveryone falls through time and the funnel it makes
But I'm staying here inside my biggest mistakeI live with it every day
Even though we moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking momentsI live with it every day
For every step I have to pay
The only thing that they can't take
The guild that spirals in my wakeThe love I put away
Like games that children play
The hearts you choose to break
Like cars dumped in the lakeThe laugh lines on your face
The life, I won't embrace
The cold house, I won't leave
The guests, I won't receiveI live with it every day
Even though we moved away
Our yesterdays are on a loop
A marathon of heartbreaking momentsI live with it every day
For every step I have to pay
The only thing that they can't take
The guild that spirals in my wake