Erase Me

So hear yourself, fine idea colonies here. 
I stopped being in front of you ages ago. 
Is it gonna be another self bidding note? 
'Cause I'm so sick of everything, 
Mostly sick of myself being pathetic for so long 

It somehow fells of me crying all my life 
I'm almost saying my vision of everything filtered through rain 

I wish, I could even wish for something to happen 
I can no longer hope, feeling something or dreaming was no longer up 
Somewhere in my foolish child being, 
I dare not hope, I dare not fight. 

Say goodbye to the comfort, 
I only wish I could be unlearnt, completely forgotten 
Me and my meaning was journeying through life 
Can I just fade away? 

I hear noises in the dark 
And hope I only dream 
My head is the only place 
Where I can hear myself 

All I do is breathing in 
(Say goodbye to the comfort, 
I only wish I could be unlearnt, completely forgotten 
Me and my meaning was journeying through life 
Can I just fade away?) 
All I do is breathing out 

(Chorus) 
Erase me 
From all hoping and dreaming 
And wishing on stars 
Erase me 
Into lonesome obsessions 
And unhealing scars 
Erase me 
There is no other dawn 
I am longing to see 
Erase me... 

I'm near but my heart is cold 
My eyes can't hold the tears 
I'm here and my mirror shows 
My childhood's ghastly fears 

All I do is breathing in 
(What if I want to fade away?) 
All I do is breathing out 

(Chorus) 
… 

I'm for the chance of inspiration, 
I wish someone else made all the decisions for me, 
Putting me out of a misery of how to choose and want like curcifixial options 
For my encourage to give up? 
Since I can never be dealt with the pain, 
Not regretting for the love like this. I'm just wondering... 
Is it not okay to be born? 
That you're having love like this. 
What is left for me to wait for? 
Should I condemn myself to keeping or leaving 
Just to warn for all that I've lost and feel like 
Or some superior power finally decides to give an end 
To the those of myself would have become? 
If I ain't get self notion anymore 
I only wish I could be unlearnt, completely forgotten 
Me and my meaning was journeying through life 
Can I just fade away? 

What if I want to fade away? 
Making mistakes I've always made...