Fabulous Friend

That hard, cruel, hostile town
There’s no place you’d want to fail 
If somewhere you were to fail

Success at any cost
If fade the same and fall
If fade the same and fall
But even there I did not think of
Someone I should have thought of

She was my fabulous friend
I could but be impressed
I could but be impressed
I wish I’d been hers too
What good does wishing do?
What good does wishing do?

I was born afraid
I miss her to this day
For me and only me
My concern it was for me
My concern it was for me

How am I to accept?
I could show such thoughtlessness
I could show such thoughtlessness
I can’t stop thinking of
The person I did not think of

I’m not brave
I’m not special
I’m not any of those things
I’m not any of those things

This guilt that I do feel
I deserve to always feel
Fully deserve to never not feel